Another emo post.
I've slept approximatly one and a half hours in three days. I'm bone achingly sad and I don't know how to make it go away. It actually hurts.
Another Real Life friend has decided that I'm too much to be friends with. I'm not surprised really, it's not the first time it's happened and it won't be the last. I just don't understand how the people that I email millions of times a day who live overseas think I'm awesome but then people here just...don't. Being friend-broken up with sucks big time, but I guess it's better to know now than delude myself and get hurt even worse down the track.
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Sunday, March 15, 2009
I've been having a bit of trouble lately.
Everything is changing so quickly and I'm struggling to keep up, to find my niche after dancing. I feel like I've done everything I've ever wanted to do, so now I'm just passing time until something else inspires me or fills me with passion.
A life without passion is no life at all.
I'm sad all of the time and some days it takes all of my energy just to get out of bed and I know that it's not something I can help. I know this, I've been living with it long enough but I just wish that the dark days would stay away long enough for me to bask in the sunshine. I just wish I could clear my head, my heart and my soul and just spend some time being me.
It's exhausting and I'm tired.
My online friends have been great through this but there is only so much you can get from an email. Sometimes I just want someone to sit with me and hug me, but if there is one thing I've ever been sure of it's that it isn't for me. I'm too much too often and I've accepted that. I would hate for someone to stick around just because it's the right thing to do. The right thing for others isn't the right thing for you.
This post has been bought to you by my emo. Driving me insane since 1984.
Everything is changing so quickly and I'm struggling to keep up, to find my niche after dancing. I feel like I've done everything I've ever wanted to do, so now I'm just passing time until something else inspires me or fills me with passion.
A life without passion is no life at all.
I'm sad all of the time and some days it takes all of my energy just to get out of bed and I know that it's not something I can help. I know this, I've been living with it long enough but I just wish that the dark days would stay away long enough for me to bask in the sunshine. I just wish I could clear my head, my heart and my soul and just spend some time being me.
It's exhausting and I'm tired.
My online friends have been great through this but there is only so much you can get from an email. Sometimes I just want someone to sit with me and hug me, but if there is one thing I've ever been sure of it's that it isn't for me. I'm too much too often and I've accepted that. I would hate for someone to stick around just because it's the right thing to do. The right thing for others isn't the right thing for you.
This post has been bought to you by my emo. Driving me insane since 1984.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Sunday, March 1, 2009
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I love my online friends.
There is a certain freedom that comes with not being able to see the person you're talking to, being able to just build a friendship based on who you are as a person, not what you look like or what brands of clothing you wear. I also approve of being able to sit in my pyjamas and not be judged.
I have three *best* friends online who are the funniest and most amazing people I've ever met. They don't mind that I get sad sometimes, they let me be my super annoying and hyperactive self and they are interested in the same things as me. They also agree that cake is NEVER negotiable, which is somewhat of a catchphrase of ours.
Sometimes I miss them and sometimes I want to hop on a plane and see them but for most of the time I just remind myself how incredibly lucky I am to have them in my life.
♥
There is a certain freedom that comes with not being able to see the person you're talking to, being able to just build a friendship based on who you are as a person, not what you look like or what brands of clothing you wear. I also approve of being able to sit in my pyjamas and not be judged.
I have three *best* friends online who are the funniest and most amazing people I've ever met. They don't mind that I get sad sometimes, they let me be my super annoying and hyperactive self and they are interested in the same things as me. They also agree that cake is NEVER negotiable, which is somewhat of a catchphrase of ours.
Sometimes I miss them and sometimes I want to hop on a plane and see them but for most of the time I just remind myself how incredibly lucky I am to have them in my life.
♥
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